Wednesday, March 3, 2010

Final Countdown

There are so many things on my mind right now. I am losing it at times I feel. I can't sleep and when I do, dreams seem to form this re-occuring nightmare. Maybe it is the resentment built up within? Maybe it's the uncertainty built up within? Maybe it's the fear of what next?
I don't know where to go from here. I have four days left. Four days, to leave it all out on the table. Far from the consequential stage of an Olympic athlete, but somehow that all seem irrelevant. Everyone to this point has worked so hard to make this once far off dream become a reality. I have to thanks Lucas and Nike for those last minute travel clips. Miranada crushed it on the artwork photos. Nat has done all he can in the little time we have had to pull this thing together.Two unnamed mentors have done all they can to help guide me in the right path and now it's time to shine.
It feels better to write it all down and leave it out to air. As cliche as those lines may sound. I always know I'm my most dangerous when I feel I have nothing to lose. Yet right now I am far from that place. TBC